06. What’s It All About

Song: What’s It All About
Artist: FenaxiZ
Album: Fenax Iz . . . (The Audiobiography)

[FenaxiZ]
The fuck is going on, I’m looking out my window
Fantino sending ETFs, booking all my kinfolk
Another homicide, body found in the staircase
Sirens breaking the silence surrounding the airwaves
It’s like I’m walking around in a square maze stressing
Having no direction, is the path I’m on progressive
Babylon’s aggressive, they go an extra half-mile
For every brown or black child, expecting us to act wild
Brethren on the crack vial, .45s, wood bats
Suicidal peers, pregnant 14-year old hoodrats, yeah
Nothing good lasts where I’m from, these so-called
Men making babies, but ain’t take care of them
Feeling tired, I’m uninspired, the air’s full of fire
Catch a bullet scar from standing on the boulevard
Sign of our times, guess it’s the end especially
When the minister is sinister, if it’s destiny then

[Chorus 1]
“What’s it all about” – The Sweet Inspirations, “Alfie”
“I’m in this to win this” – Havoc, “The Start Of Your Ending (41st Side)”
“Lord forgive me” – Prodigy, “Survival Of The Fittest”
“You gotta get yours” – Snoop Doggy Dogg, “Gin And Juice”
“God bless my soul” – Prodigy, “Survival Of The Fittest”
“I’m falling and I can’t turn back” – Prodigy, “Survival Of The Fittest”
“My sanity is going like an hourglass” – Nas, “Eye For An Eye (Your Beef Is Mine)”

[FenaxiZ]
And why was I raised with infants who were caged in prisons
Before their second decades in these crazed conditions
We’re lost, does it make a difference if our world ends
I’m tossed, gotta change directions with the whirlwinds
When it’s quiet and calm, I’m in the eye of this storm
Knowing full well that we die to be born for it’s God’s will
And everyday I’m reminded that my clock will stop still
On blocks filled with mothers of sons who shots killed
And yesterday, my man’s crib was raided for narcotics
And guns, ’cause he tryna fill his pockets with funds
While it’s war in the streets of Vic. Park and Lawrence East
Some calling for help, but we all ignoring police
Though the city is hideous, gotta remember I’m a bit of this
Section of depression plus the bitterness, a place where
My man caught a hollow death, wonder if I got tomorrow left
Wishing I could beam the fuck up outta here on a holodeck
It’s black rain and back pain from these mad weights
That I lift on my shoulder, will I live to be older
To my unplanted seeds, I hope you don’t go through
The kinda shit that I go through, it’s fucked up here

[Chorus 2]
“What’s it all about” – The Sweet Inspirations, “Alfie”
“I’m in this to win this” – Havoc, “The Start Of Your Ending (41st Side)”
“Lord forgive me” – Prodigy, “Survival Of The Fittest”
“You gotta get yours” – Snoop Doggy Dogg, “Gin And Juice”
“I gotta maintain ’cause stress on the brain can lead to a motherfucking suicide thing”
– Havoc, “Just Step (Prelude)”

[FenaxiZ]
I need to hold Your hand and ascend to Your golden land
Stay determined to make it, convert any hatred
To sunshine in light of all the issues I face
Though sometimes, it’s like I fall and misuse Your grace
With a lot to live for, I’ve gotta give more than I granted
‘Cause you set the soil before I was planted
But I can’t understand it, were You tryna answer
My questions, like why was grandma dying of cancer
Confessions of greed outweigh my blessings received
And I ain’t gonna be saved unless I believe and have faith
But with so much drama in T.O.C
It’s kinda hard finding God amongst cheap Olde E’s
Wish I could know Your ways in this new age of AIDS
Find a cure for all the victims, purify their system
Write a gospel for every lost soul if it it’s possible
And I finally understand You didn’t lose me, I lost You
It’s three sides of me, two destinations, and only
One life to live, so I’ll play the part if You write the script
With that said, I’ma kill my habits
First time I prayed in years and I’m still a savage